Музей форума дьякона Кураева (1999 - 2006)

Добавление к пред. сообщению: В одном из храмов мне рассказали, что этим летом был предпринят облет над всей территории России с мvроточивой иконой Царя-мученика. Может ли кто-нибудь рассказать об этом подробнее?

Ниже я привожу письмо, полученною мною в августе этого года от принявшего православие Николая из Дании. См. также его страницу на английском языке www.mobilixnet.dk/~mob55672/overview.htm =========================================================== Date: Wed, 25 Aug 1999 23:29:32 +0200 From: Orthodox@mobilixnet.dk To: palomnik@iname.com Dear Roman. What happened to me in 1995 was a miracle! I was an alcoholic and a drug addict from 1979 to 1995. I was a bum, a loser, depressed and absolutely insane! In 1995 I hit the bottom. Physically, mentally, spiritually I was reduced to a hurting zero! In march I met some people who told me that alcoholism was a spiritual disease, and therefore the solution was also spiritual. They did not tell me what to do, except than I should “stay away from the first drink“ I did, and in the summer of 1995 I went to Russia on a sort of “pilgrimage“. I had been to Russia before and was always attracted to Russia in a mystical way! Ever since childhood. Oh yes! Me and my friends drank like russians!! Oh yes! We would sit and drink buckets of Vodka while listening to Tchaikovsky and russian gyspy style music! I would be in an old officer's tunic and high boots! We would jam on guitars and sing and cry and laugh, and talk about unhappy love for women we would never get! I loved this great country that was just as sad inside as I was! When I was in Russia first time, I felt at home. Nobody even noticed that I was foreign, first when speaking. People would adress me on the street in Russian. I would stagger up and down Nevsky with a bottle of Vodka and chainsmoking Belomor Kanal. Oh yes! I was killing myself in Russian style. But when I went to Russia the second time, in 1995, I was sober! Everything seemed different. I stil had a dreadful urge to drink, and I was very much afraid to begin drinking again. I walked around town, looking at the palaces, the houses, the Neva, and thought about how beautiful the Winter Palace is, but - - there was nobody home!!!! Like in my own life, - no rules, no right and wrong! Nothing was illegal in my life, as long as nobody found out! Like modern St Petersburg at night! I went of course to Tsarskoje Selo, to see the Alexander Palace. His Majesty Emperor Nikolaj II was always my hero! Ever since I was a boy, I admired this ehical, deeply devoted father, who ruled Holy Russia. Furthermore he was half danish and even spoke my language.When looking into his eyes on old photos, I saw the deep inexplainable sorrow of his soul, that I always felt myself. Yes I “fell in love“ with your great Emperor Nikolaj II. and his world. His wife also attracted me very much, because she was a convert who gave herself absolutely to a life in Christ. The best she could. This day in July in 1995, I went to Tsarskoje Selo with my old drinking friend, who had also sobered up. We went to the Palace, but it was closed! We walked in the direction of the station, when I suddenly heard the chiming of a nearby Church! I had never been to an Orthodox Lithurgy, and instinctively knew - I had to go.

Продолжение письма Николая =========================================================== We went inside the small Church (I think it was the Church of Our Lady of the Sign?) It had a big Icon of St Nicholas The Wonder Worker on the right. I was at once struck by the atmosphere in this old Church, that had not been restored or anything. It spoke to me also historically about Holy Russia. The painting on the walls were unchanged since 1917.! I went to pray to The Tsar Martyr, but there was of course only the previously mentioned Icon. I prayed for the first time in my life with my heart. I was still a lutheran, and I did not know any Orthodox Prayers - and - on the other hand - I did!!! I prayed that St Nicholas the Wonder Worker get the Tsar Martyr to pray for me, because I loved this Saint so much, and I needed help!! My urge to drink was killing me, 3 months sober. I prayed for the old women outside the Church, that God have Mercy on us for leaving our grandmothers to die in the street! I prayed that God take my will and my life and make me the person that I was intended to be! His creation! It is impossible for me to explain what happened. I knew I was loved by God. I knew that if I committed myself to try to live by spiritual principles, a day at a time, striving towards belief! Then Christ would become a reality in my life. I prayed for two hours, and afterwards I went outside to find my friend who had left the Church. He could not take the heavily loaded atmosphere there!! He looked at me in astonishment and asked me what had happened? I answered that I did not know but it was what I came to Russia for! I never felt the urge to drink again. It is now 4Ѕ years ago, and my life is changed in all aspects. I could not get in contact with the Russian Orthodox Church in Exile in Danmark. Nobody answered my letter. I had to wait almost 4 long years, before I could attend an Orthodox Lithurgy again. I came across a young Roumanian Orthodox Priest visitng Danmark, and I attended his Lithurgy. That was the first time I heard an Orthodox Sermon (in english) that I could understand! I wept during the Lirthurgy! His Sermon this day was - about “the necessety to love Our own Cross!“ Oh yes indeed. He taught me about the Philokalia, the Church Fathers and much more. Then a new Priest was assinged to the Alexander Nevsky Church in Copenhagen, and we had a talk on the phone, Then we met in Copenhagen, and I learned that the only Orthodox Church in Danmark was build for The Emperor Alexander III and his danish Empress, The Tsar Martyr's mother! All the family, including The Tsar Martyr and his family used this Church when on holiday in Danmark. It was fantastic. Everything in the Church was as before 1917. In the priest's quarters are huge portraits of the Emperors, and the old green and brown leather furniture is still there! The next time spoke with the priest on the phone, he told me that I would be baptized on July 16th. and be named Nikolaj after The Tsar Martyr Nikolaj II. I had of course told the Father my storym but not suggested this or any other date!! I had decided to leave that to God! I was then baptized, and a week after I went again to St Petersburg, to visit The St Ioann Kronshtatsky Monastir, the grave of Blessed St Xenia, the Alexander Nevsky Lavra, and of course the Alexander Palace. Praying at the graves of these Saints was fantastic! I am lost for words. So much love for God and such peace coming from praying there! And this time The Alexander Palace was open!! I was overjoyed, that my waiting had not been in vain. I almost stormed inside. I was struck by the spiritual atmosphere there at once. I fell to floor and kissed the floors and the walls of all rooms open to the public, and I wept in prayer! It was wonderful to visit the home of My Patron Saint. I shall never as long as live forget the old women working in the cloakroom - , she said that The Spiritual blessing Soul of Tsar Nikolaj II is very much present in the Palace - as if it was the most commonly known fact. I am rather lost for words now - it has been some time since I tried to tell my story the last time. I have not told everything, but perhaps the most important about my story is, that all this spiritual love of Christ and His Angels were present in my life all through the years - I just had to pray with my heart and not my head! It still strikes me, how many times times I have prayed, and that everything had come to me. Not in my time, but in God's time. I have no doubts that I have a very powerful and loving Patron Saint who folds my prayers into his own and intercedes for me to Our Lord Christ! Glory be to God ! I wish you a blessed and peaceful day my Brother! In Christ Nikolaj

См. Русский Вестник № 27-28 (http://www.rv.ru)

Роман, добрый день! Об этом “крестном перелете“ много рассказывал Виктор Саулкин по “Радонежу“, можно просмотреть июльские номера “Радонежа“, если все это у вас (в Омске) есть, конечно. Вкратце два года назад было благословение о. Николая с острова Залит, долго искали спонсоров, наконец нашли, и всю Россию облетели, включая и те места, в которые из-за последних разделений и не чаяли попасть. Много было разных икон, читались молебны и акафисты, их везде очень тепло встречали. Это вкратце.

Спасибо, Роман, за удивительную историю. Жаль, что не все здесь, наверное, читают по-английски.

Уважаемый Паломник. Не будите ли Вы так любезны, перевести сей текст на русский язык. Я в нем ничего не понимаю, абсолютно. А прочитать душеполезную историю хочу. С уважением, Владимир Морозов.